Dearest Dominique,
Thanks a lot for showing interest and help... I really appreciate it.
I replied to my other post too. I can tell you I've been living in a very peculiar situation for many years, with lots of blocks inside of my heart. I basically have been courted by two men for several years. I had started my love story with one of them when the second appeared and did all his best to take my heart away. I tried to resist for long time not to hurt anybody.
One of them ( a bit older) lives faraway from me while the other one ( a bit younger) lives quite close. Finally the latter made me a proposal, I refused because of my blocks then almost immediately after my refusal I decided to accept his proposal as I understood I couldn't stay without him but he said it was too late... and in a very short time he found another woman.
I waited for him to come back... I'm still waiting for him but I can tell you I'm getting more and more disappointed to see how much distant he can keep from me suddenly.
The other man has been supporting me from distance in this horrible period of great shock ... I got shocked because the one who proposed has changed his character completely. I can hardly recognize him and i worry about him even...
Meanwhile the older man has built many shields because of the story but I believe he still loves me.
Soon there will be a journey I think I'll see him but I still have the younger on my mind.
A couple of things (maybe silly ones) have happened during the year which made me think there will be a turning point like a marriage for me despite I can't see things are going fine. So in my question about marriage I'd like to know if you could see anything alike in my next future, let's say within this year or the coming one.
Will I have a future with one of these two men? And which one?Sorry for keeping you such long time in telling this story. (Regarding children, I'm curious , what did you see? I love children but I'm so much afraid to have babies, anything to do with that?)
Thanks for your help, Jasmine