por evanlange » Tue Mar 05, 2013 8:37 pm
Skip, I've been hesitant to open myself to the forum, and I'm glad to see you here. The question was, pretty simply:
Will I get the SF job ?
It is a job that has the potential to not only provide me with a steady income that will completely alter my family life, but it is a particular place where my personality and talents would be fully welcome and engaged on a daily basis. While I am a strong and favored candidate, the final decision has not come down yet.
The other reason I have been after a job at all is to provide a life of steadiness that will allow me to bring forth my personal creative work, Mr. Mito. For a while, The Hermit has been a quick symbol of Mr. Mito, and so I could interpret this spread as a big, warm yes all around. The conventional interpretations, however, provide a gloomy but necessary period of trial, so I'm left with a feeling of uncertainty.
I notice I'm attached to the outcome, and I can tell there's a pain inside that I'm afraid to face regarding that attachment – tied to how I source my own value, letting go of a long-held pattern of economic struggle, and a focused effort to break that pattern. I have not felt this level of anxiety – perhaps ever. It's not like the SF job is the only job I could get, but this is the end of a wave of effort that, if this job does not come about, will force Amber and I to reconfigure my day-to-day role in the family until I get a job. In other words, we're out of money, and need a solution.
So the question on a deep level is, will my struggles (the failed pattern) continue, or will I go into something new, and finally get what I've been working toward now?
The star, and my own interpretation of the future cards, gives me the wow. I don't see hardship happening in the future cards. Would you agree?
I'd love your interpretation, and I will most likely find out later today a final answer, which I will post here.
And Skip, I've been looking for ways for us to personally connect, so please do so soon!